I don't write about myself much in this blog anymore, except as an extension/observer of the experiences the kids now have.
So here is a minorly self-centered post.
I used to write. A lot. I used to fill pages of scenes from stories where I was supposed to be writing calculus notes. On my computer, I currently have a folder crammed with old, badly written stories. I've been at Writing.Com since I was 16. In a few years, if I stick it out, I will have been on that site for half of my life.
The site still houses some of my less embarrassing works. Some old poetry and short stories, and the occasional snippet from a half-started novel project that I've tinkered with over the past few years.
I completed NaNoWriMo 3 years ago. It was stupendous and I was ecstatic, even though the end result was a poorly written piece of slop. At least it had been written! I attempted it every year since and failed within the first week, losing motivation and steam in one fell swoop. November is a truly terrible month for me to attempt such a feat.
Yet, when asked to describe myself, one of the first words that comes to mind is "writer". Though I haven't successfully written much in the past few years (Though I am particularly pleased with this piece:
Motherhood).
I hope to attempted NaNoWriMo once again in November.
Until then, I entered a poetry contest. I have no aspirations of winning, simply of finishing. My skill as a poet is mediocre at best. That is, I can write something enjoyable, but not truly impressive. A common comment in reviews of my poetry includes the word "simple". I just can't think abstractly enough to crank out top-notch poetry. Though I do enjoy breaking down complicated experiences into simple words. Then, sometimes I wonder if it's too simple and I just don't understand what poetry is. Especially when I read the masterpieces written by others following the same prompt in the same amount of time. The sample poem for the prompt of "Washing the Car" was stupendous. I came up with this:
"Their laughter spills over
like the suds over the side of the bucket
that bangs against their shins.
They do not notice the bruises.
Sopping wet rags and shirts and bare feet.
They dance back and forth,
glistening green appearing where they go,
brown remaining where only an adult can reach.
With a thumb set against the mouth of the hose,
they scatter from the onslaught, their task forgotten.
Dripping bangs in their faces
and a smile completes the memory.
Dirt remains, in the crevices of the door
and the rims of the tires
and the unreachable top.
A professional might have done the job better.
But what fun would that be?"
There is a certain thought process in writing poetry that is different from writing prose or simply writing. I personally enjoy the simplicity of my pieces, but wonder if it even really counts... Ah, well. (Please note, I am NOT saying it's bad poetry, just not stellar. Obviously, I have a certain level of pride in the piece or I would not have shared it).
But the switch is turned, so if I post some weird phrase or put my thoughts down in an obscure pattern, blame this poetry contest. You should have seen some of the lines I considered writing down as I thought about writing a blog entry on some unrelated topic.